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My fitness journey: I quit this sh**!

I told yall I’d write about my fitness journey. So let’s go.

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That’s me!!

As some of you know, my hubby died in May. After my husband died my natural reaction to deal with the grief was to eat. Oh, I’m so good at it. I’m NBA Reggie Miller in the playoffs good at eating my feelings. Whenever I was sad, happy, bored or whatever I ate. I did this when I was a kid and stopped when I couldn’t fit my clothes. I wanted to go back to doing that again. You see I’m a wine and cupcake kind of girl. Don’t let it be a heavenly delicious and so not nutritious vanilla cupcake. That’s my crack. Anyway, instead of eating and drinking cheap wine, I was inspired by my husband who worked out and played football and soccer. My hubby ran and rode his bike everywhere. He loved working out so I decided to put all my energy into working out.


Y'all really think she's going to show up on time.

I thought this would be easy like it was two years ago. I was in great shape, but I stopped working out. I got lazy and I gained over 40 pounds. Life was like nah! This ain’t going to be easy. Today was tough. I wanted to quit. I wanted to quit last week but didn’t. I walked out in November while saying “f**k this sh**” in the middle of a workout.  I didn’t come back for over week after my November episode. This morning I sat in my car for 10 minutes before I walked in the door to go workout.


Me working out in November

Me working out in November

I felt for my coach. He sensed it and my face said it all. I didn’t want to be there and he could tell. I tried to get through the motions, but I frustrated him.

Yall! If I could eat what I want and not gain weight, I would never workout. No doubt about it. I hate pain. I hate sweating out my hair. I hate eating healthy and I hate being physical. I like comfort and living in my mind. I’m a thinker and thinkers like to think. I just want to buy makeup and wear beautiful clothes. I want to get my nails done, laugh at funny jokes, raise my children, give hugs to the people I love, read good books, talk about politics, write stuff, travel and eat good food without working out. If it was only that simple.
FB_IMG_1484685763808You see darn near every morning heart says go back home and go to bed. A voice in my head says there’s no reason to do this. What are you trying to prove and who are you trying to prove this to? No one cares if you’re in shape or not. What is the point? When I do lifts incorrectly (and trust me I do this a lot), if I can’t lift or when I am out of breath from running, my head says why am I doing this? It also says, fitness competitions? That’s one of my goals this year, HA! No one believes in you. You can’t even lift weights the other women can. You can’t run as fast as they do. You aren’t as tough as they are and you aren’t strong as they are. You hate pain. You hate being pushed and people’s expectations for you are too damn high. Life would be so much easier in bed dreaming of what I could be doing instead of doing it. My heart says GO HOME! Rest! You’ll be fine. You’ve been through a ton of crap growing up. Life put its boot on your neck and squeezed until it almost squeezed the light and life out of you. You’re broken. Your husband is dead and you’re raising sons alone. You deserve to rest.

This working out thing! It’s not fair lol. Can’t I catch a break? I want to do what he’s doing. HA!

But even after hearing all of that, working out is still worth it. I hate thought of being overweight. I’ve seen the women in my family get sick and their bodies fail them. My nana died from diabetes. One grandma died from cancer and the other had a stroke. I don’t want that. I have two sons. I’m all they have and they’re watching me. We parents lead by example and I don’t want them to quit so I can’t quit. I know if I don’t take care of my mind, body and soul I will be unhealthy. So I keep going when I don’t want to. I drink my water when I need to. I show up because I have to. Since May 2016 I’ve gone from a size 14 to a size 8. I have a lot more to go.

My reasons why

My reasons why

 When you want to quit and when you want to give up, never forget your reasons why. Focus on those reasons why and you will get through your “I can’t,”I don’t,” and “I don’t want to.” Thanks for reading. I hope my story helps you get through whatever you’re going through. I quit quitting on me. Don’t quit on yourself. The only limit you have is the one you have placed on yourself. Think and be limitless.

Me in August 2016:

me in red


Me now:


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  1. Shanda 7 February, 2017 at 12:29 Reply

    Great inspiration for when I want to quit and avoid the gym. I’m going back to the gym this week. My family has an extensive history of heart disease, diabetes, & high blood pressure. I definitely hate the gym, but know it is a preventive measure to avoid all those illnesses.

    May God continue to bless you and your sons!

  2. Getty Cameau 7 February, 2017 at 13:53 Reply

    I committed to working out on a regular basis on July 8th 2016. This is my late sister’s birthday. It only made sense for me to work out. We have a gym at work, I can get dressed and clock in within seconds of each other. My family has a history of health issues as well. I love it. It feels good and my body feels stronger. It’s a space I had to create for me, where I wasn’t a mother, daughter, employee, etc. Before working out I felt constricted. Like I needed to run away from everything and everyone. I no longer feel that way. I knew that I had to do something. Working out has also helped my emotions. I’m not irritable anymore. I’m a much happier person. I smile when I’m on the treadmille! Working out on a regular basis helps on so many levels. For real. Great post.

  3. Lisa 7 February, 2017 at 18:58 Reply

    Honey no one WANTS to work out even those fitness models. But like you I got tired of being overweight plus various family members were suffereing from diabetes, high blood pressure, and other illnesses. I was told I was pre-diabetics and it scared me. I dropped my sugar levels and went from size 18 to a size 12 and still working at it. I too see older family members bodies fail and I don’t want that. So keep on keeping on!

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